Last Night’s Date
The date last night was with a long-time friend from Helena. He is the one who took me hunting this year and who I have dated off and on for well over a year.
I sometimes wonder what the hell I’m doing dating him. I’ve had this man in my life since July, 2004 and neither of us have made a commitment, nor have we really discussed where the relationship may or may not go. Is that odd, or is it normal and healthy and non-rushing of things that not ought to be rushed? And why can’t I figure out which it is?
Granted, I don’t want to get married today, this year, and not next year. Probably not ever, when it comes right down to it. However I seem to always want things to be defined anyway. Helena boyfriend and I defined our relationship about a year ago as just friends. We don’t see each other enough for it to be more than friends, but we keep in contact too frequently and make an effort to see each other more than my other “just friends” people.
It’s confusing. Yet I encourage many of my single friends to get out there and start dating. I wonder if misery just loves company!
At any rate, it was nice to have the kids out of the house and indulge in some real adult conversation about our days. It was nice to have someone look me in the eye and care about what has been going on with me lately. It was nice to zone on the Christmas tree lights and not worry about the silences. I will probably date again, in other words, confusing as it is today.
dating, divorce, friendship, Helena, commitment, marriage, Christmas lights, adult





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